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Why I like you

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“I’m such a mess. Why do you even like me?” she asks.

There is a pause but not a long one. She braces herself but does not expect the answer she would receive.

“I am constantly amazed by the things you say, entranced by the things you do… and you’re easy on the eyes. If we’re together long enough, I hope that one day you’ll see yourself the way I see you.”

And that’s how I have always felt about you. Ever since we met the first time for a bak kut teh dinner and crepe dessert after, followed by a hot chocolate drink. And a long walk home under the moonlight. A stopover at my place for the jar of Manuka honey. Supper of roti prata. All accompanied by endless conversations. (Still one of my favourite blog posts ever.)

Because, hon, it is really that simple…

“When you meet the right person, you know it. You can’t stop thinking about them. They’re your best friend… and your soulmate. You can’t wait to spend the rest of your life with them. No one and nothing else can compare.”

More than two years later, I still feel the same. Do you?

[Quotes via How I Met Your Mother Season 7: Episode 10: “Tick, tick, tick”]

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Talking to you makes my day

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The past few days got me reminiscing about those happy moments and even just thinking about how much fun we had makes me smile.

It could be that I am easily content or that I am simple-minded. But just receiving your text messages would easily make my day too. Imagine what would happen if you call me. Maybe I’d faint from the high levels of delirium running through my veins. Haha!

Ever since that night few years ago when in the middle of our regular text conversations you told me you wrote “ITETTYATSAEOE” in your diary, my heart was yours because I felt the exact same way.

I have probably told you long ago that I always have this stupid grin on my face whenever I talk to you and how you always make me smile stupidly in public or how I always have to stop myself from laughing out loud when there are people around. I love talking to you and sharing the events of my day with you so much that my day only feels complete when we surprise each other with happy texts in the morning, random texts throughout the day and wish each other “goodnight and sweet dreams” at night.

There are never bad days when I talk to you, only good or awesome ones.

The writers from How I Met Your Mother must have had a similar experience because in one of the Season 7 episodes, a scene gave what I felt a voice.

“When I let a day go by without talking to you… um… then that day’s just no good.” — Barney Stinson

And it’s so true… For me at least.

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Spooning you

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Really. There is nothing else I rather do more. You?

One of the most awesome things in life is spooning you to sleep. With our bodies curled and fitted perfectly together like two pieces of jigsaw puzzle. With my arm tucked around you; holding you close, protecting you from the cold of the night, letting you feel safe in my arms.

Wrapping your warm body from behind; inhaling the sweet smell of your hair, feeling your every breath rise and fall, listening to your soft snores. And sometimes rearranging the blanket so we have an equal share.

Having our legs entwined, snuggling even closer to you and feeling content with life.

That’s how awesome spooning you feels.

[Via Cardboard Love]

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Things I want to do with you

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Oh, the things I wanna do with you!

Hey there, beautiful. What’s it like in New York City? (For some reason, this song popped into my head out of nowhere.)

I want to sit in a cozy cafe with you and share our life stories, plus all the interesting and funny stuff we saw while drinking our favourite coffees together. Milk and no sugar for me, please.

Let’s take silly pictures and videos in bed making funny faces, Voldermort noses and crazy poses. And watch movie marathons on weekday afternoons so we can laugh ourselves silly while eating the food we sneak into the cinema. Maybe we can bring a small bottle of muscato to share too.

We can go for long walks in a beautiful park or on the beach. And play on the swings if they have and record videos of us laughing till our tummies ache and we can’t breathe. Maybe even bring the dogs along and have a picnic.

I want to play “name that 80s/90s song” game with you, go to the karaoke bar and let you cringe at me singing out of tune, and dance along to music videos with you. I want to hear all the latest songs you have been listening to and watch you hum their nice tunes.

We can hold hands while we sleep, wake up to see the sunrise and find a lovely spot to watch the sun set. Just like in a private villa. Just me and you.

I want to travel to new places with you so we can explore new cultures, taste new cuisine and eat hotel breakfast together. Imagine all the exciting adventures out there waiting for us.

Best of all, I want to do everything on the list with you over and over again. Because…

‘They click in ways even they can’t pinpoint. But from the moment they meet, they know there is something special there.’

Ever felt like that about someone? That’s how you’d feel if you knew me because you won’t be able to get me out of your head. Haha!

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Hot chicks

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After a fantastic dinner yesterday, my friends and I were lolling about, enjoying the restaurant’s extremely relaxed ambience. It was as though we had booked the entire place for our own pleasure. We were talking about everything and midway a story my friend was relating about her travels, a conversation I once had a long time ago popped into my head.

It was in 2010, sometime around 19-20 March. Whatsapp was new and exciting to us. We had just started chatting to each other not long ago and our conversations can last as long as the night and begin as early as the sunrise. We couldn’t get enough of each other. I would send her “good morning” messages when I wake up and she would text me when she flew back home or had wi-fi access. That night was no different.

I remember that night as though it was yesterday. I was at a popular club with my friends and we had jugs of vodka. The music was blasting and they were urging me to dance with them. But all I wanted to do was sit down in a quiet corner or go straight home so I could continue talking to her in peace. Every time a message from her popped up, I had to reload the app to retrieve it because the reception in the club was poor. But it didn’t matter. I had a silly grin on my face the entire night and it was hard to stop smiling.

3/19/10 PM 09:10:54: Her: Wei 11, ur turn at Words!!!
3/19/10 PM 11:58:39: Me: Honey!!! You’re back!!! 
3/20/10 AM 12:14:31: Her: lol! how did u noe i was gone? 
3/20/10 AM 01:01:52: Me: Coz I’m just awesome like that  You miss me innit 
3/20/10 AM 01:02:23: Her: i went to see koala bears & kangaroos!
3/20/10 AM 01:03:23: Me: Lol!! How are they? Furry and brown enough for you?
3/20/10 AM 01:03:53: Her: furry and funny hahahaha
3/20/10 AM 01:04:06: Me: Are they better than 
3/20/10 AM 01:04:17: Her: u r a mind reader
3/20/10 AM 01:05:10: Me: Only when it comes to you lol
3/20/10 AM 01:05:27: Her: 
3/20/10 AM 01:06:20: Me: Lol! What time is it over there
3/20/10 AM 01:06:59: Her: it is…. wanna guess?
3/20/10 AM 01:07:42: Me: Yes!!! Which part of ozzie land are you at? Oh btw can you stop thrashing me at words?!
3/20/10 AM 01:08:57: Her: sorry honey 
3/20/10 AM 01:09:04: Me: Perth? Mmm melbourne?
3/20/10 AM 01:09:05: Her: im jUz too li hai
3/20/10 AM 01:09:14: Me:  Li hai simi. And honey, I’ve been taking my honey regularly. Hope you’re taking redoxon too
3/20/10 AM 01:10:29: Her: omg yeah i was caught in a massive downpour dat day n i. had nowhere to hide n it was coooold
3/20/10 AM 01:10:50: Me: Lol!! When?! Maybe koala bears and kangaroos can give you warm. Lol!! Wear more clothes abd stop sleeping with just a bathrobe on!
3/20/10 AM 01:11:44: Her: they didnt  hahahahaa i didnt! the hotel doesnt provide bathrobes  n its hilton!
3/20/10 AM 01:12:16: Me: Aw… But they have cookie?
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Her: nope!!!!!!! 
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Me: I will give you cookie when you’re back la
3/20/10 AM 01:13:49: Her: really? big n warm n yummy type?
3/20/10 AM 01:14:01: Me: Lol!! Of course. xoxo honey
3/20/10 AM 01:15:35: Her: xoxo = hugs & kisses!

She would also send me the photos she had taken with her Nokia phone by downloading them to her iTouch. I would often send her random and pretty pictures I took with my iPhone while we would ask each other to send more photos so we could see the world and all the interesting stuff through each other’s eyes. That night she must have uploaded the photos before she texted me because she came well-prepared.

3/20/10 AM 01:21:05: Her: <media attached> can u tell wat dis is?
3/20/10 AM 01:26:45: Me: Lol!!! How did you blend three soaps together?! Show me more pics!! I’ve never seen a koala and kangaroo up close and personal
3/20/10 AM 01:27:35: Her: i didnt! my mum did! she’s crazy like dat! but i tot it looked super cute like a fake cake
3/20/10 AM 01:29:02: Me: Hahaha i did thought it was a cake
3/20/10 AM 01:31:21: Her: view from room <media attached>

And the moment when I knew she had me…

3/20/10 AM 01:31:45: Her: chicks
3/20/10 AM 01:31:52: Me: Where?! Hot?!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:02: Her: <see picture above> lol! yessss!!! ur fave!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:14: Me: Indeed
3/20/10 AM 01:32:33: Her: white black asian.. all there!
3/20/10 AM 01:33:56: Me: Oh man… They are too hairy for me 

Her laughter, even though I could only see it on the phone’s screen, was the most beautiful sound I heard that night.

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Hot chicks

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After a fantastic dinner yesterday, my friends and I were lolling about, enjoying the restaurant’s extremely relaxed ambience. It was as though we had booked the entire place for our own pleasure. We were talking about everything and midway a story my friend was relating about her travels, a conversation I once had a long time ago popped into my head.

It was in 2010, sometime around 19-20 March. Whatsapp was new and exciting to us. We had just started chatting to each other not long ago and our conversations can last as long as the night and begin as early as the sunrise. We couldn’t get enough of each other. I would send her “good morning” messages when I wake up and she would text me when she flew back home or had wi-fi access. That night was no different.

I remember that night as though it was yesterday. I was at a popular club with my friends and we had jugs of vodka. The music was blasting and they were urging me to dance with them. But all I wanted to do was sit down in a quiet corner or go straight home so I could continue talking to her in peace. Every time a message from her popped up, I had to reload the app to retrieve it because the reception in the club was poor. But it didn’t matter. I had a silly grin on my face the entire night and it was hard to stop smiling.

3/19/10 PM 09:10:54: Her: Wei 11, ur turn at Words!!!
3/19/10 PM 11:58:39: Me: Honey!!! You’re back!!! 
3/20/10 AM 12:14:31: Her: lol! how did u noe i was gone? 
3/20/10 AM 01:01:52: Me: Coz I’m just awesome like that  You miss me innit 
3/20/10 AM 01:02:23: Her: i went to see koala bears & kangaroos!
3/20/10 AM 01:03:23: Me: Lol!! How are they? Furry and brown enough for you?
3/20/10 AM 01:03:53: Her: furry and funny hahahaha
3/20/10 AM 01:04:06: Me: Are they better than 
3/20/10 AM 01:04:17: Her: u r a mind reader
3/20/10 AM 01:05:10: Me: Only when it comes to you lol
3/20/10 AM 01:05:27: Her: 
3/20/10 AM 01:06:20: Me: Lol! What time is it over there
3/20/10 AM 01:06:59: Her: it is…. wanna guess?
3/20/10 AM 01:07:42: Me: Yes!!! Which part of ozzie land are you at? Oh btw can you stop thrashing me at words?!
3/20/10 AM 01:08:57: Her: sorry honey 
3/20/10 AM 01:09:04: Me: Perth? Mmm melbourne?
3/20/10 AM 01:09:05: Her: im jUz too li hai
3/20/10 AM 01:09:14: Me:  Li hai simi. And honey, I’ve been taking my honey regularly. Hope you’re taking redoxon too
3/20/10 AM 01:10:29: Her: omg yeah i was caught in a massive downpour dat day n i. had nowhere to hide n it was coooold
3/20/10 AM 01:10:50: Me: Lol!! When?! Maybe koala bears and kangaroos can give you warm. Lol!! Wear more clothes abd stop sleeping with just a bathrobe on!
3/20/10 AM 01:11:44: Her: they didnt  hahahahaa i didnt! the hotel doesnt provide bathrobes  n its hilton!
3/20/10 AM 01:12:16: Me: Aw… But they have cookie?
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Her: nope!!!!!!! 
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Me: I will give you cookie when you’re back la
3/20/10 AM 01:13:49: Her: really? big n warm n yummy type?
3/20/10 AM 01:14:01: Me: Lol!! Of course. xoxo honey
3/20/10 AM 01:15:35: Her: xoxo = hugs & kisses!

She would also send me the photos she had taken with her Nokia phone by downloading them to her iTouch. I would often send her random and pretty pictures I took with my iPhone while we would ask each other to send more photos so we could see the world and all the interesting stuff through each other’s eyes. That night she must have uploaded the photos before she texted me because she came well-prepared.

3/20/10 AM 01:21:05: Her: <media attached> can u tell wat dis is?
3/20/10 AM 01:26:45: Me: Lol!!! How did you blend three soaps together?! Show me more pics!! I’ve never seen a koala and kangaroo up close and personal
3/20/10 AM 01:27:35: Her: i didnt! my mum did! she’s crazy like dat! but i tot it looked super cute like a fake cake
3/20/10 AM 01:29:02: Me: Hahaha i did thought it was a cake
3/20/10 AM 01:31:21: Her: view from room <media attached>

And the moment when I knew she had me…

3/20/10 AM 01:31:45: Her: chicks
3/20/10 AM 01:31:52: Me: Where?! Hot?!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:02: Her: <see picture above> lol! yessss!!! ur fave!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:14: Me: Indeed
3/20/10 AM 01:32:33: Her: white black asian.. all there!
3/20/10 AM 01:33:56: Me: Oh man… They are too hairy for me 

Her laughter, even though I could only see it on the phone’s screen, was the most beautiful sound I heard that night.

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I woke up wanting to kiss you

I do. I really do. Do you?

Your soft pink lips. I miss them. With you I want to live. In between your heart and soul, I rest with you.

I wake up with a longing to feel you in my arms. Every day.

*The above is an artwork by British artist Tracey Emin in 2010. It was featured at an exhibition by neonist Kerry Ryan and artist Declan McMullan, curators and producers of 80 + Artists 100 + hours. Emin has been one of my favourite Brit artists ( Sarah Lucas, Damien Hirst, Gilbert & George are my other favourites if you’re keen to know) ever since I saw her work Everyone I Have Ever Slept With 1963–1995, a tent appliquéd with names, and My Bed — an installation of her own unmade dirty bed.

I met Emin once at a book signing for Strangeland (2005), her long-awaited memoir, and she was a bit snarky and intimidating to talk to. It was as though she was in a rush and had somewhere else better to be. I felt cowed and still do whenever I think of the moment I asked her to sign my copy. I still have the book neatly stacked in between my Terry Pratchett novels. But I have always thought she was an extremely intelligent, thoughtful person when I started reading her columns in Independent in 2005. So I guess I am pleased to have met Emin at least once in my life. She inspires me to appreciate art installations more.