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Love is knowing who’s the boss

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My first thought when I look at this quote was: ‘Is this why I kept giving in to you all the time??’

HAHAHA! I felt very amused, so I took a photo of it when I was at the art museum (I love visiting art museums by the way). Then I remember how you’d always say that I’m bossy one, because I’d make sure we do things the right way like you have to eat proper meals or you shouldn’t rub your eyes or I must tuck you in bed so you can sleep well or you must eat your medicine or you should do this or that in a certain way …

And you’d tell me that I should let you do what you like even if it could be wrong, because it’s your choice and I can’t always ‘micromanage’ everything.

Then I’d tell you I do all these, because I care for you and want the best for you all the time. I’d explain to you cheerfully like: ‘If I don’t love you, I wouldn’t worry about you at all.’ And you’d roll your eyes in a ‘yah, right’ way. And I’d look sheepishly at you. Ha!

Sometimes when you’re in a good mood, you would say that I’m very caring or I’m very ‘motherly’. And I would roll my eyes and look sheepishly at you.

Then recently I realised I occasionally behave like this to almost everyone. Maybe I am a natural worrier and I feel responsible for most people’s well-being. Like that day I saw someone rubbing her eyes with her dirty hands and I insisted and nagged that she should wash them or her eyes would be infected and she might go blind until she relented. Or if I know someone hasn’t eaten, I’d nag non-stop at them to go eat something. Or when my friend lost her mobile phone in a cab and hadn’t done anything to retrieve it, I kept asking her to call the cab company and her phone until she gave in. Yes, I know… Bad habit.

Or how when I have meals with people, I would make sure everyone has enough to eat and would eat lesser so everyone has more. And I would keep telling everyone to take more food. Seriously! What’s wrong with me, right?!

I should really chill and let everyone, including the one I love, do whatever they like in any way they want, even if I think it’s better to do it my way. Haha!

Everyone should have a chance to make their own mistakes and I shouldn’t deprive them of that learning experience. Also, I guess if I don’t like my mum nagging at me all the time, why would other people want me to nag at them?!

So yes, I’m gonna stay cool from now on and let the world be. No one needs to know how caring or responsible or motherly or naggy or bossy I really am.

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Serendipity

When good things happen to awesome people like me. Oh yeah.

So it was the fourth of July two days ago and it was a big deal for the US. For me, it was just another long day at work and wanting to talk to someone badly. It didn’t happen.

Anyway I was really excited about July. The first day started with lots of laughter when we watched this really hilarious comedy skit that poked fun on everything from the government, politics, celebrity scandals, racial differences, medicine to being gay. It was good-natured and well acted out that we kept laughing and laughing. During intermission, we went to get beers. So I ended up watching the second half with this tingly alcoholic buzz that made everything even funnier. I’m so glad we decided to watch it!

On the second day (Monday), I remembered I had a horoscope forecast for this month, which got me even more excited. Here it is:

This July is a time to seriously apply yourself to your duties and responsibilities. Take charge in home, career and community affairs. Be patient and apply yourself to routine and details diligently. Organise your personal life and your career. Tie up loose ends. Start projects that will improve your living situation such as repairing the house or starting a garden.

Someone in your circle of friends and relatives needs help. Usually, this is a younger person who has not found stability or purpose in life.

This month may well bring an excellent opportunity in your own career. Focus on legal affairs. Discipline and effort are the key words for July. Romance takes a more serious turn. Expectations are expressed and commitments made.

It’s kinda true because I do have an excellent opportunity in my career now. But what really got me hot under the collar is that romance takes a more serious turn this month, with expectations expressed and commitments made. Woooooooooooooooo-hooooooooooo! Can’t wait.

I’ve always loved the word “serendipity” after watching the movie of the same name in 2001, starring John Cusack and Kate Beckinsale. This is a romantic comedy about how two strangers met while shopping and felt mutual attraction for each other. They ended up having ice cream, going ice-skating, and talking about star constellations. At the end of the night, they decided to entrust their fate to destiny and left their phone numbers on a dollar note and in a book because the girl said if they were meant to be together, they will find their way back to each other somehow.

Then a few years passed and the two believed they’ve lost each other forever. Both were with other people now but they decided to find each other one last time. So both individuals traced back their steps that wonderful night separately and through a series of mishaps, they felt that maybe the chance is lost.Then things started changing, with them receiving the items they wrote their phone numbers in few years ago. So they set off looking for each other again and just when they thought they have lost hope, the first snowflake fell. And their eyes met at the park where they saw the stars. A year later, the happy couple celebrated their anniversary at the same spot where they first met.

I truly believe in that good fortune and good things do happen to you when you radiate positive energy and are not actively seeking them. And when they do, you feel so ridiculously happy because you didn’t expect them and you start feeling lucky. And when you feel lucky and happy, you just begin to feel even luckier and happier. And when you feel luckier and happier, even more good fortune and good things start happening to you. True?

Because life is that simple; find what it is that makes you happy and who it is that makes you happy and you’re set.

Hehe, I have a sudden urge to watch the movie again.

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Happily ever laughter

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What a wonderful weekend! In fact, what a wonderful week it has been! And I can’t wait for the week ahead, and the week after that and weeks ahead! Yes, I know I am ending every sentence with an exclamation mark. I can’t help it. I’m just too happy and excited and in love with my life. So I’ll add a few more exclamation marks for good measure. Whee!!!

I babysat Milo (my naughty but adorable dog) on Monday evening because my parents were out of town. Even though he destroyed the remote control and left a pile of poop in a corner of the house, I still feel a surge of love whenever he comes running and wagging his tail at us. We then went for a long run and came home happily filled with endorphins. I made him dinner, I ate my dinner and then settled back to read the papers while he snoozed next to me. It was so incredibly blissful that I couldn’t stop smiling the whole time.

Tuesday I came home to a wonderful feast of the King of the kings of fruits: Mao Shan Wang durian. Its flesh was so thick, so creamy and so bittersweet with just the right amount of firmness. Its seeds were tiny, meaning there was lots of durian flesh to enjoy. It was much better than a chocolate orgasm. Seriously. I felt so lucky and pampered that I had to remember to eat slowly so I could savour every single bite of the best durian ever.

Wednesday I attended my first ever baking class and it was enlightening. I never knew how much egg yolks, butter, cream and sugar we use to make desserts. Now that I know the truth, I can never un-know it. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

But it was fun learning to bake flour-less chocolate cake (it might be healthier to continue using flour if we had to use twice the amount of yolks and butter just to replace the flour), raspberry tart and creme brรปlรฉe. The class was also interesting as a learning ground for me. It made me realise I have absolutely NO passion in baking and standing around the chef while she gives us instructions. Perhaps it was my frighteningly short attention span but I knew then that I’m not a born baker; I much prefer to eat the chocolate chips than trying to melt them into sauce. So that’s another wonderful day of learning for me.

I met up with some friends on Thursday and we went shopping for our Saturday plans. Then we had a delicious Korean meal that I totally enjoyed and can’t wait to try it again. See, yet another great day and to make it even more awesome, it was Friday the next day! Win.

Friday. We’ve reached the promised land. Work was easy breezy and time flew by quickly. I went for a beauty product launch held at this mega-club that I have never gone to before so that was an eye-opener. Drinking refreshingly tasty Sangrias in the company of very well-dressed fashionistas was exciting. It made me felt like I was part of the cool crowd. HAHAHA!!!

I made some new friends there and they dragged me off to another party and I got to know more new people. I was on such a happy alcoholic buzz the whole night that I felt like a super cool kid. Oh, oh, and I received some expensive products (that I’ve been thinking of purchasing since last week) from the launch, which means I get to save money now. Seriously, how wonderful life is? Are you jealous yet? Are you? Are you?

But what made Friday night even sweeter was when I got home? I spent a few hours talking to someone I really adore. We ended up texting until we fell asleep. That was nice.

And Saturday was the local Mardi Gras party held in a big park. It was loud, it was brightly coloured, it was hot, it was crowded, it was humid, it was FUN. My friends and I brought our dogs along to celebrate the freedom to love (regardless of what gender you prefer) and everyone gave the dogs more attention than they gave us. I told my friends that we were just the owners with blurry faces in those people’s minds. Haha!

We then had a yummy ramen dinner al fresco style at a quaint neighbourhood while our dogs lounged around us. It was incredibly beautiful and tranquil. That was when I thought: “I wish you were here to share all my happiness with me tonight.” ๐Ÿ™‚

After dinner, we took a stroll before parking ourselves at a stylish cafe for desserts. Sitting there, sipping tea and eating cakes while looking at the dogs exploring their surrounds and chatting and laughing with my friends just felt so amazing. You really feel that life was perfect and there’s nothing more you want in life than to do this every weekend. I perked up at one point during the conversation and said: “Tonight feels like a Sunday. But it’s not!”

My friend then quipped: “Which means we have another day to enjoy ourselves!”

And we all grinned at each other. Again, I wished you were here with us tonight. You’d have so much fun.

Sunday was just so fucking perfect. I never laughed so hard for two hours in my life. It was a great decision to watch a comedy matinee (pictured above). I have never been prouder of my nationality and my country. And you know what made it funnier? Having a beer during the intermission and getting a lovely buzz in the second half that made every line the comedians said thrice as funny. You’d have loved the play and enjoyed yourself today. I know I did.

This is such a long entry for what I really want to express. Hehe. What I really want to say is: I love this entire week. I love my friends. And I love my life.

And we all live happy ever laughter.

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Labour of love

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On Labour Day, May 1, we headed out brimming with anticipation of the fun activities ahead. We had racked our brains so hard when we were planning what to do two days earlier. And we came up with a few suggestions but they were either too last-minute, no vacancy left or too time-consuming.

Our criteria were that the activities had to be in an air-conditioned area, not crowded and fun. She suggested knitting classes, baking and cooking while I thought a one-day hotel getaway would be fun. We could enjoy the clean amenities, sleep and feast our day away in a cool environment. But she wasn’t too keen on it. Then I hit upon a brainwave: we could go painting, have lunch and play games at a cafe, followed by dinner.

And so here’s the result of our labour after three hours of intense concentration. I painted Uncle Vincent’s Cafe Terrace at Night (pictured above) while she painted a popular Japanese character (below). And they are damn good replicas of the real pieces if I may say so myself. Ha!

While she said my painting was too abstract for her liking, I thought it’d look really great on the wall of my future house. Heh.

Anyway, I really really like her artwork. The little girl reminded me of a younger her with two little plaits and the pouting posture. I love how she painted her eyes too. Big, round and so full of emotions like a pretty anime character. (Also because she listened to my suggestion to put some white in her eyes, hehehe!)

Best of all, she has this secretive and almost cheeky smile that makes her look so adorable that I wanted to grab her face IRL and give her Boon Tiong kisses all over. You tell me, how to resist a face like that?

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Hot chicks

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After a fantastic dinner yesterday, my friends and I were lolling about, enjoying the restaurant’s extremely relaxed ambience. It was as though we had booked the entire place for our own pleasure. We were talking about everything and midway a story my friend was relating about her travels, a conversation I once had a long time ago popped into my head.

It was in 2010, sometime around 19-20 March. Whatsapp was new and exciting to us. We had just started chatting to each other not long ago and our conversations can last as long as the night and begin as early as the sunrise. We couldn’t get enough of each other. I would send her “good morning” messages when I wake up and she would text me when she flew back home or had wi-fi access. That night was no different.

I remember that night as though it was yesterday. I was at a popular club with my friends and we had jugs of vodka. The music was blasting and they were urging me to dance with them. But all I wanted to do was sit down in a quiet corner or go straight home so I could continue talking to her in peace. Every time a message from her popped up, I had to reload the app to retrieve it because the reception in the club was poor. But it didn’t matter. I had a silly grin on my face the entire night and it was hard to stop smiling.

3/19/10 PM 09:10:54: Her: Wei 11, ur turn at Words!!!
3/19/10 PM 11:58:39: Me: Honey!!! You’re back!!! ๎„†๎˜๎—
3/20/10 AM 12:14:31: Her: lol! how did u noe i was gone? ๎
3/20/10 AM 01:01:52: Me: Coz I’m just awesome like that ๎„๎„…๎‰ You miss me innit ๎‚
3/20/10 AM 01:02:23: Her: i went to see koala bears & kangaroos!
3/20/10 AM 01:03:23: Me: Lol!! How are they? Furry and brown enough for you?
3/20/10 AM 01:03:53: Her: furry and funny hahahaha
3/20/10 AM 01:04:06: Me: Are they better than ๎„‰๎”จ๎„‰๎”จ๎„‰๎”จ๎„‰๎”จ
3/20/10 AM 01:04:17: Her: u r a mind reader
3/20/10 AM 01:05:10: Me: Only when it comes to you lol
3/20/10 AM 01:05:27: Her: ๎‹
3/20/10 AM 01:06:20: Me: Lol! What time is it over there
3/20/10 AM 01:06:59: Her: it is…. wanna guess?
3/20/10 AM 01:07:42: Me: Yes!!! Which part of ozzie land are you at? Oh btw can you stop thrashing me at words?!
3/20/10 AM 01:08:57: Her: sorry honey ๎“
3/20/10 AM 01:09:04: Me: Perth? Mmm melbourne?
3/20/10 AM 01:09:05: Her: im jUz too li hai
3/20/10 AM 01:09:14: Me: ๎™ Li hai simi. And honey, I’ve been taking my honey regularly. Hope you’re taking redoxon too
3/20/10 AM 01:10:29: Her: omg yeah i was caught in a massive downpour dat day n i. had nowhere to hide n it was coooold
3/20/10 AM 01:10:50: Me: Lol!! When?! Maybe koala bears and kangaroos can give you warm. Lol!! Wear more clothes abd stop sleeping with just a bathrobe on!
3/20/10 AM 01:11:44: Her: they didnt ๎„ˆ hahahahaa i didnt! the hotel doesnt provide bathrobes ๎‡ n its hilton!
3/20/10 AM 01:12:16: Me: Aw… But they have cookie?
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Her: nope!!!!!!! ๎€ฃ
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Me: I will give you cookie when you’re back la
3/20/10 AM 01:13:49: Her: really? big n warm n yummy type?
3/20/10 AM 01:14:01: Me: Lol!! Of course. xoxo honey
3/20/10 AM 01:15:35: Her: xoxo = hugs & kisses!

She would also send me the photos she had taken with her Nokia phone by downloading them to her iTouch. I would often send her random and pretty pictures I took with my iPhone while we would ask each other to send more photos so we could see the world and all the interesting stuff through each other’s eyes. That night she must have uploaded the photos before she texted me because she came well-prepared.

3/20/10 AM 01:21:05: Her: <media attached> can u tell wat dis is?
3/20/10 AM 01:26:45: Me: Lol!!! How did you blend three soaps together?! Show me more pics!! I’ve never seen a koala and kangaroo up close and personal
3/20/10 AM 01:27:35: Her: i didnt! my mum did! she’s crazy like dat! but i tot it looked super cute like a fake cake
3/20/10 AM 01:29:02: Me: Hahaha i did thought it was a cake
3/20/10 AM 01:31:21: Her: view from room <media attached>

And the moment when I knew she had me…

3/20/10 AM 01:31:45: Her: chicks
3/20/10 AM 01:31:52: Me: Where?! Hot?!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:02: Her:ย <see picture above> lol! yessss!!! ur fave!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:14: Me: Indeed
3/20/10 AM 01:32:33: Her: white black asian.. all there!
3/20/10 AM 01:33:56: Me: Oh man… They are too hairy for me ๎Ž

Her laughter, even though I could only see it on the phone’s screen, was the most beautiful sound I heard that night.

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Hot chicks

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After a fantastic dinner yesterday, my friends and I were lolling about, enjoying the restaurant’s extremely relaxed ambience. It was as though we had booked the entire place for our own pleasure. We were talking about everything and midway a story my friend was relating about her travels, a conversation I once had a long time ago popped into my head.

It was in 2010, sometime around 19-20 March. Whatsapp was new and exciting to us. We had just started chatting to each other not long ago and our conversations can last as long as the night and begin as early as the sunrise. We couldn’t get enough of each other. I would send her “good morning” messages when I wake up and she would text me when she flew back home or had wi-fi access. That night was no different.

I remember that night as though it was yesterday. I was at a popular club with my friends and we had jugs of vodka. The music was blasting and they were urging me to dance with them. But all I wanted to do was sit down in a quiet corner or go straight home so I could continue talking to her in peace. Every time a message from her popped up, I had to reload the app to retrieve it because the reception in the club was poor. But it didn’t matter. I had a silly grin on my face the entire night and it was hard to stop smiling.

3/19/10 PM 09:10:54: Her: Wei 11, ur turn at Words!!!
3/19/10 PM 11:58:39: Me: Honey!!! You’re back!!! ๎„†๎˜๎—
3/20/10 AM 12:14:31: Her: lol! how did u noe i was gone? ๎
3/20/10 AM 01:01:52: Me: Coz I’m just awesome like that ๎„๎„…๎‰ You miss me innit ๎‚
3/20/10 AM 01:02:23: Her: i went to see koala bears & kangaroos!
3/20/10 AM 01:03:23: Me: Lol!! How are they? Furry and brown enough for you?
3/20/10 AM 01:03:53: Her: furry and funny hahahaha
3/20/10 AM 01:04:06: Me: Are they better than ๎„‰๎”จ๎„‰๎”จ๎„‰๎”จ๎„‰๎”จ
3/20/10 AM 01:04:17: Her: u r a mind reader
3/20/10 AM 01:05:10: Me: Only when it comes to you lol
3/20/10 AM 01:05:27: Her: ๎‹
3/20/10 AM 01:06:20: Me: Lol! What time is it over there
3/20/10 AM 01:06:59: Her: it is…. wanna guess?
3/20/10 AM 01:07:42: Me: Yes!!! Which part of ozzie land are you at? Oh btw can you stop thrashing me at words?!
3/20/10 AM 01:08:57: Her: sorry honey ๎“
3/20/10 AM 01:09:04: Me: Perth? Mmm melbourne?
3/20/10 AM 01:09:05: Her: im jUz too li hai
3/20/10 AM 01:09:14: Me: ๎™ Li hai simi. And honey, I’ve been taking my honey regularly. Hope you’re taking redoxon too
3/20/10 AM 01:10:29: Her: omg yeah i was caught in a massive downpour dat day n i. had nowhere to hide n it was coooold
3/20/10 AM 01:10:50: Me: Lol!! When?! Maybe koala bears and kangaroos can give you warm. Lol!! Wear more clothes abd stop sleeping with just a bathrobe on!
3/20/10 AM 01:11:44: Her: they didnt ๎„ˆ hahahahaa i didnt! the hotel doesnt provide bathrobes ๎‡ n its hilton!
3/20/10 AM 01:12:16: Me: Aw… But they have cookie?
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Her: nope!!!!!!! ๎€ฃ
3/20/10 AM 01:12:57: Me: I will give you cookie when you’re back la
3/20/10 AM 01:13:49: Her: really? big n warm n yummy type?
3/20/10 AM 01:14:01: Me: Lol!! Of course. xoxo honey
3/20/10 AM 01:15:35: Her: xoxo = hugs & kisses!

She would also send me the photos she had taken with her Nokia phone by downloading them to her iTouch. I would often send her random and pretty pictures I took with my iPhone while we would ask each other to send more photos so we could see the world and all the interesting stuff through each other’s eyes. That night she must have uploaded the photos before she texted me because she came well-prepared.

3/20/10 AM 01:21:05: Her: <media attached> can u tell wat dis is?
3/20/10 AM 01:26:45: Me: Lol!!! How did you blend three soaps together?! Show me more pics!! I’ve never seen a koala and kangaroo up close and personal
3/20/10 AM 01:27:35: Her: i didnt! my mum did! she’s crazy like dat! but i tot it looked super cute like a fake cake
3/20/10 AM 01:29:02: Me: Hahaha i did thought it was a cake
3/20/10 AM 01:31:21: Her: view from room <media attached>

And the moment when I knew she had me…

3/20/10 AM 01:31:45: Her: chicks
3/20/10 AM 01:31:52: Me: Where?! Hot?!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:02: Her: <see picture above> lol! yessss!!! ur fave!
3/20/10 AM 01:32:14: Me: Indeed
3/20/10 AM 01:32:33: Her: white black asian.. all there!
3/20/10 AM 01:33:56: Me: Oh man… They are too hairy for me ๎Ž

Her laughter, even though I could only see it on the phone’s screen, was the most beautiful sound I heard that night.

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I woke up wanting to kiss you

I do. I really do. Do you?

Your soft pink lips. I miss them. With you I want to live. In between your heart and soul, I rest with you.

I wake up with a longing to feel you in my arms. Every day.

*The above is an artwork by British artist Tracey Emin in 2010. It was featured at an exhibition by neonist Kerry Ryan and artist Declan McMullan, curators and producers of 80 + Artists 100 + hours. Emin has been one of my favourite Brit artists ( Sarah Lucas, Damien Hirst, Gilbert & George are my other favourites if you’re keen to know) ever since I saw her work Everyone I Have Ever Slept With 1963โ€“1995, a tent appliquรฉd with names, and My Bed โ€” an installation of her own unmade dirty bed.

I met Emin once at a book signing for Strangeland (2005), her long-awaited memoir, and she was a bit snarky and intimidating to talk to. It was as though she was in a rush and had somewhere else better to be. I felt cowed and still do whenever I think of the moment I asked her to sign my copy. I still have the book neatly stacked in between my Terry Pratchett novels. But I have always thought she was an extremely intelligent, thoughtful person when I started reading her columns in Independent in 2005. So I guess I am pleased to have met Emin at least once in my life. She inspires me to appreciate art installations more.