Don’t give up on what you want most


I think this rule applies to almost everything in life. Want more money? Work hard. Want to have a successful career? Work hard. Want to get good grades? Work hard.

‘Don’t give up what you want most for what you want now.’

It’s true, you know. If you just lay there and watch TV or play your favourite iPhone game the whole night, what sort of rewards do you think you will get in return? Money? Job offers? More knowledge? Haha!

So with this in mind, I shall get up from bed now and start on some way overdue work. Procrastination is a very scary habit to have… Everything just piles up and you end up having to clear a lot of work at once. 😦

It’s only the 25th day of the new year and I already feel jaded and unmotivated. How to get through the rest of 2013 at this rate?!

But still, life has been good to me. And according to the feng shui for the upcoming Year of the Snake, I’m gonna have a very good year ahead, especially for my career and wealth prospects. Hehe! Wish me luck!


The aftermath of Hurricane Sandy


How did everyone spend the week which had Hurricane Sandy tearing through New York and cause massive power outages along the way?

I spent that week talking to someone I care dearly for nearly every day. She was in New York and I was worried for her safety, her health and if she had enough to eat or if she would be bored or frustrated being trapped in a foreign land and unable to get home. I would find the funniest videos or interesting pics to send her or talk to her about random silly things, so I can take her mind off her situation then.

It’s funny how you spend all your time trying to make someone happy, but end up being miserable yourself because you feel unappreciated.

I suppose one shouldn’t have expectations of any kind, because that would only lead to unwanted thoughts and unanswered questions. It doesn’t matter even if you show care and concern for someone, because that person may not even give a shit about you.

It’s true, you know. If someone really misses you or wants to see you, she would do anything possible to do so. And if she ends up choosing to do something else or meet other people and ignore your messages instead of making time for you, you know that this person is not worthy of your attention. In a way, her actions have answered all your pathetic questions.

Why should I keep pursuing someone who clearly isn’t interested in me anymore and knowingly (or to give the benefit of doubt, unknowingly) cause me pain?

I am sick and tired of having to deal with all the crap and thinking about what I can do to make you happy. It’s time to cut my losses. I am stopping all my emotional investment in you. It’s time for me to see the bigger picture and let go of the pain inside.

You can only love someone this much before you realise that she doesn’t want to have any sort of relationship with you. So grow up and suck it up. It’s no longer love; it’s pain and misery.

I should put myself first and surround myself with people who genuinely want to hang out with me, who enrich my life, who care for me and want me to be happy.

I can spend my whole life trying to get you to see me for who I am and accept me for what I am and love me back, but I have ended up in a never-ending cycle of misery because I couldn’t let go.

I am getting out now and putting myself first. Wish me luck.

P/S: I miss playing Kokology, but I guess I will never get my book back now. The audacity of it really upsets me.


Last person you think of at night


I have nothing to else to add. This pic says it all for me tonight. Who do you think of every night before you fall asleep? For me, it’s you every single time.

‘I’d do it all over again, you know. Us, you, me… all of it. I’d do it again. I’d choose you every time.’ — A quote from the movie Date Night

I watched this film earlier in the evening when I was supposed to be studying. I was totally distracted and it was guilt-inducing to waste two hours like that, but it felt so good to laugh out loud at silly humour. It’s been a while since I had laughed so heartily.


I can’t sleep tonight


It’s 2.52am now and I am lying on Boon Tiong Bed, unable to sleep. My eyes are tired, but my mind is reluctant to stop being so preoccupied with you.

The night feels long and for some reason, an Air Supply song keeps popping in my head. It’s like that episode when Spongebob Squarepants has a song that keeps playing in his mind. Musical doodle?

I feel restless. Maybe it would help if we could spoon like these adorable kitties under a cozy quilt in an air-conditioned room. I promise to let you have all the blanket and maybe baobei too. If I get too cold… I’d just snuggle even closer to you. Ok? ☺



Drink less, work more


Gina Rinehart, world’s richest woman, wrote: ‘Do something to make more money yourself.’ (Photo: AFP/File, Tony Ashby)

I read this article few days ago and I thought it was one of the most useful inspirational pieces someone who’s striving to be a success in life can take as motivation.

Writing in an industry magazine column, the world’s richest woman, Australian mining tycoon Gina Rinehart, urged those envious of the wealthy to do something about it, and stop whining.

Rinehart is the matriarch of her family iron ore prospecting fortune of US$30.1 billion, which also makes her Australia’s wealthiest person.

“There is no monopoly on becoming a millionaire,” she wrote.

“If you’re jealous of those with more money, don’t just sit there and complain. Do something to make more money yourself — spend less time drinking or smoking and socialising, and more time working.

“Become one of those people who work hard, invest and build, and at the same time create employment and opportunities for others.”

Other people (they’re probably myopic) have slammed her supposedly controversial remarks, but I think her words made absolute sense. And the fact that she has multiplied her family fortune to where it is now only enhances the value of her advice. Priceless.

I truly believe that if someone has perfectly functional limbs and mental intelligence, then they should work hard for what they want, instead of begrudging the government or the society or the environment or the people around them for not serving everything on a platter to them. Agree?

Those, who have been protesting that Rinehart should share her wealth with the poor, should just shut up. How would you like it if you were told to donate half your salary to poor strangers you don’t know every month? Don’t argue that you have less money than her. It’s a matter of perspective.

Giive Rinehart the benefit… She probably does her fair share of charity work and just hasn’t publicise every single activity, unlike other publicity seeking organisations that have to advertise every dollar they donate.

Remember, there’s no monopoly in earning your first million dollars.

Rinehart, you’ve got a supporter in me!

P/S: If your kids insist on taking you to court over the trust fund and you’re thinking of disowning them, I’m available for adoption. Ahem.


Life is too short

I woke up around 4am last night and got the shock of my life when I looked in the mirror. There was a weird ugly person staring right at me. And we did not look remotely alike even though we were wearing the same clothes. The person in the mirror had huge bulging swollen red eyes and a bloated face. That was traumatising.

Few hours later, I still don’t look like myself. The person in the mirror still looked as horrifying as last night and I started wondering if this was a permanent look. I haven’t looked at the mirror since but I am not looking forward to it.

Whoever who coined the phrase “cry me a river” was certainly right on the mark. When you are heartbroken and you can’t stop crying, you will feel as though you have cried so much that your tears could fill up a river. Which led me to this…